My oncologist called and told me my latest protein count, which is how they measure the amount of myeloma in my body. The last time it was tested several months ago, the myeloma was skyrocketing around 8 and now it's gone down to 2.8! The chemo is doing what it's supposed to, which is super encouraging especially being at the halfway point.
So we're excited and we're thankful and we have joy!
And then this little reminder creeps into my brain...and I find myself thinking about the whole 'no cure' aspect of this. What am I supposed to do with that? Do we celebrate? I mean, how good is this news that my count is down if there is 'no cure'? Some days I really freak out on that. Like, seriously. On those days, thinking about 'no cure', I can't listen to songs from CDs Matt made me before our wedding without crying because of the dashed hopes that those songs represent. On those days, I can hardly pull myself together to accomplish anything at all. It can be really tough and scary and sucks the life right out of me.
And then last week it's as if the Holy Spirit whispered a word that changed everything: "Yet." There is no cure 'yet'. That gives me hope. There are breakthroughs and advancements in research being made all the time. The vaccine that I'm doing at Health & Wellness is super cutting edge and I have a great oncologist. I'm in good hands. Actually I'm in the best hands...
Psalm 20
May the Lord answer you in the day of trouble!
May the name of the God of Jacob protect you!
2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and give you support from Zion!
3 May he remember all your offerings
and regard with favor your burnt sacrifices! Selah
May the name of the God of Jacob protect you!
2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and give you support from Zion!
3 May he remember all your offerings
and regard with favor your burnt sacrifices! Selah
4 May he grant you your heart's desire
and fulfill all your plans!
5 May we shout for joy over your salvation,
and in the name of our God set up our banners!
May the Lord fulfill all your petitions!
and fulfill all your plans!
5 May we shout for joy over your salvation,
and in the name of our God set up our banners!
May the Lord fulfill all your petitions!
6 Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed;
he will answer him from his holy heaven
with the saving might of his right hand.
7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
8 They collapse and fall,
but we rise and stand upright.
he will answer him from his holy heaven
with the saving might of his right hand.
7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
8 They collapse and fall,
but we rise and stand upright.
9 O Lord, save the king!
May he answer us when we call.
May he answer us when we call.
2 comments:
Beautiful - you and your continued honesty and faith. I love you, my baby girl...
Dear friend, I love you and your amazing willingness to be real and minister to all those around you. You are truly a gift to all who know you and truly His beloved! Praying always for you both, the page fam
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